100 WORKOUTS!

I did it! I celebrated my 100th workout today by jogging (and a little walking, shhh!) 3 miles today! I knew it was going to be a great day when I weighed myself and saw that I had lost another pound. 22 pounds total! I decided this workout needed to be bigger than the rest. Something that would push me just a bit more than usual. I have had a 3 mile running route in mind, but never had the time or the guts to try it. Today was the day. When I run, I either have one dog with me, or two, or a stroller with a kid, or all three. It felt weird, but today, I had none of them. Duke was limping from swimming yesterday, Da Vinci is just an old fart, and Wyatt was sleeping. I also needed to do this run for just myself. There's always an excuse behind my other runs. "The dogs need exercise...Wyatt gets to feed the chipmunks at the park...we need to get out of the house." But this was just for me. And to be honest, I didn't like it. It was a foreign feeling. Those dogs and that great kid of mine are always with me...and I like it that way. If I'm going to be alone, I'd rather be getting a pedicure.

Though my Disneyland goal got tweaked a bit, my other rewards have stayed the same. Looks like I've earned a new dress and just a couple pounds from calling a photographer!

My work is still not done yet. Deep down, I've still hung on to the goal of losing 30 pounds, and since I'm only 8 pounds away, I want to keep trying. And I'm actually thinking about buying the "Insanity" workout to get me there. Heaven help me. The infomercials makes me want to cry. But its time to push on to the next goal and try something new!

Men's Workouts are From Mars, Women's Workouts are from Venus

I am getting very close to my 100 workouts goal and I'm very excited. When I get very excited about something, I talk about it...a lot. So Disneyland has been the topic of discussion lately. When should I go? Show I try to go next week? Should we just wait? Blah Blah Blah! A basic conversation with Byron goes like this:

Me: I'm thinking about going to Disneyland in the next little bit.
Byron: You could do that.
Me: But I'm not quite to my goal of 100 workouts yet. But if I pushed and did 3 to 4 workouts a day I could make it.
Byron: (chuckle chuckle)
Me: What was that? Why are you laughing?
Byron: Nothing!
Me: Tell me why you're laughing!
Byron: Because to me, a workout is a workout. I go to the gym, and everything I do that day is consider A workout.
Me: So you think if I set a goal of 100 workouts, that should be the same as 100 days? That would take me forever to get to Disneyland.
Byron: I'm not saying that. Go to Disneyland. I just think its weird that you divide up your workouts.

Bleh!!!!! So what do you think? Am I the crazy one? (Nevermind, don't answer that.) But honestly, as a mom, there are really hectic, bad days when all I have for myself is 30 little minutes, and 9 times out of 10, they are spent pushing a kid in a stroller. But I'm still being a mom, doing something that I love, and yet still trying to find time to take care of my body. Why then, should I be penialized for that? Should a 30 minute jog be counted as the same as a 90 minute run/cardio/abs combo?

Ok, ok, I know I'm not supposed to be looking at the scale every day anymore, but I'm in the 130s...barely, 139.5, but still...I was starting to think I would never see myself in the 130s. There's something about seeing that "3." Like I'm that much closer to my goal and I might actually reach it. The ultimate goal is 130.5. I can see it there on the horizon!

Just so I will remember...

Sunday morning, I was actually happy with the way my stomach looked. And my outfit made me look hot, just sayin'. And I did workout #75 this morning. I am 3/4s closer to my goal!

Not much to say, but still progressing!

I haven't been writing much, but I haven't been in a blogging mood with any of my blogs lately, so that's why. It isn't because I haven't been working at my exercise program, 'cause I really really have! Ever since I lightened up on myself and stopped worrying about the weight so much, my life has been a lot happier. I haven't had any bouts with depression and crying because the weight wasn't coming off as fast as I'd like it to. It still isn't coming off as fast, but focusing on working out and getting up to 100 workouts has been a much more positive process, something I can control. And I'm discovering that even though walking for 30 minutes is easier than running for 30 minutes, I still want to run. I want to push myself, because I know I'll see better results. The eating part could be a bit better, but I like to eat good sweet things. I just got back from a great vacation in Parawon, UT with family, and then Seattle with more family. I love KB's food when he grills, so I ate well up there.
And in Seattle, I knew there were going to be some yummy places, especially the Trophy cupcakes with Esther where we taste tested 4 cupcakes. I still lost weight.

I think it was because I knew these "eating moments" were coming, and so I would workout more and stay away from the snack foods that just were fluff and not really taste. I really think about if something is really worth eating before I put it in my mouth. Yesterday, 1/4 of a Rocky Mountain Chocolate Carmel Apple was worth putting in my mouth. But a random average granola bar from Wyatt's snack bin (which I looked at and threw back), then not so much.

So just a little report, as you can see in my weigh-in's column, I have lost 19.5 lbs as of this morning and I have done 67 workout sessions. If I do 2 to 3 workout sessions 6 days a week, which is what I've usually been doing, I'll have my big reward by the end of this month. Disneyland here we come!

Running Sucks!

I fell. I totally fell. I was doing really good. I only had one dog with me, Wyatt was at home with Byron, and there was a 30 minute time limit. I got half-way through my run, Duke by my side, The Killers pumping in my ipod, and then in happened. My very expensive, very well made $12 Target tennis shoes :P caught the edge of the sidewalk, and sent me flying forwards. The sidewalk of the Pueblo Park was designed by Satan himself. It is covered in razor sharp gravel that devours skin and leaves hamburger. Because of my speed, once my left knee hit the sidewalk, the momentum continued to push my knee across the pavement like cheese on a cheese grater. Yummy. Contrary to what my husband claims, I was not running like this:


But my knee does look like this:

and my thigh feels like its been jammed up into my hip, which means I need a chiropractor, stat! Fun times, fun times.

OK, so here's the new plan...

I've changed my way of thinking about this weight-loss thing. And before I explain it, I want you to know that I'm not totally ok with the change. I feel as though I am giving up a little, or cheating, and there is some guilt that is coming with that. But the original plans of losing 30 pounds was making me crazy. One mistake, and I was depressed and crying. I would punish myself and loathe myself if I ate tortilla chips. Side note: I'm pretty sure there is a hormonal issue here, and problems with dealing with failure, blah blah blah. One problem at a time. I wish I could say that I have had an awakening and have discovered a love of my body and who I am right now. Well, I'm here to tell you that is a load of crap. Bottom line is, I can no longer allow myself to be consumed with the thought of losing 30 pounds, losing 30 pounds, losing 30 pounds! Its driving me nuts, because you know what, I may never fully lose those 30 pounds. But I'm excercising everyday. Not just 20 minutes. But good hard working excersise for more than an hour. And I'm doing it in or near my home, and either with my child playing near me, riding his bike along with me, or sleeping soundly in the care of my husband. There are times that my hour workout takes me an hour and a half, because I need to give a good morning hug, or make breakfast, or help get the legos down. But if I need to be a good mom that is not 30 pounds less, then so be it. I surrender. I'd rather be chubby and with my son, then skinny and ignoring him.

OK, my new plan: 100 workout sessions. A session must be 30 minutes or more. A session can be running, walking, cardio, weights, swimming (not constantly though, 2 laps and I about died.). The scale is getting put away. Byron has been told to take it and hide it. I will weigh myself in a month. This may bite me in my big behind. I may weigh myself in a month and discover not a damn thing has changed. I'll deal with that if it comes. It may be in the form of a nervous breakdown, but I'll still deal with it. Once I accomplish 100 workouts, I will be purchasing my season passes for Wyatt and I to Disneyland, where I will go and eat a frozen banana.

I am worried about my diet, though. I haven't been able to find a way to measure or record if I have been eating healthy. And what do I do if I mess up? I'm still trying to work all that out.

So now, I just try to find enjoyment in my workouts, eat all the veggies I can fit onto my plate, and hope that its enough. Because, quite honestly, I have had enough!