Dear Parawon,

I will be coming to visit you today. My purpose is to go skiing for 2 days and enjoy some physical activity with my family.

Please be advised that it is NOT my goal to over eat at every meal, snack on girl scout cookies, load up on carbs, and drink fat and sugar laden hot chocolate 5 times a day just because I saw a snowflake outside.

Parawon Paralysis will cease and desist. There will be no desires for naps at 11 AM. TV watching will be reserved only after a good long run on the slopes. I will come home weighing the same, if not LESS than when I came.

:P

Better

That's what I've got to do...I've got to do things better. I'm making very little progress and it is frustrating me. So I've got to do just a little bit more. Adding more to my workout, walking longer distances, running for a longer time, eating less, drinking more water. I've got to do better.

The Negative and Positve Effects of a Weekend

I went to Parawon last weekend. In Parawon, all we do is eat and sit. Its called Parawon Paralysis. This is what I ate, and I am not exaggerating:

• 1/2 box thin mint girl scout cookies


• 5 lemonade girl scout cookies


• a piece of steak bigger than my head


• carbs, carb, carbs


• not nearly enough water


• potatoes slathered in butter and sour cream


• 4 chips-ahoy chocolate chip cookies and a full glass of milk, at one time


• banana cream pie


• hot chocolate


• In and Out Animal Fries and a root beer


• Scooby Snacks


• taco salad in a deep fried tortilla shell

Uhg. Well, we all know the negative effect of this binge eating. I gained 2 pounds and felt sluggish and bloated. How can there possibly be a positive side to all of this? Believe it or not, I was so angry at myself for all the crap I ate, it actually motivated me make up for the damage, and maybe a little bit more. My workouts are longer, and so are my jogs. More intense too. And as of this morning as I stood on the scale, its working! Now the 3 opportunities this weekend to eat birthday cake for Wyatt's birthday may cause a whole new set of challenges!

Today's Motivations are the Following:

This playlist:

This conversation:

Me: Wyatt, I'm so sleepy today. I should workout, but I want to go back to bed.

Wyatt: I think you should go do your exercises.

Me: But I'm really tired. I want to go back to bed.

Wyatt: No Mommy! If you go to bed, you'll get a pound.



This vegetable that I am currently munching on:

And this picture:

Well, the kid in the picture. No, nevermind, the Mickey lollipop is kind of motivating me too!

Hey! What better way to get myself out of a chubby rut, than to eat a McDonald's double cheese burger for lunch, THEN finish off your son's happy meal, because heaven forbid you throw away food! Way to get 'em Sommer! :P

Stuck in a Rut!

The past few days might have been productive, but I'm noticing that I'm doing just what I can to barely get by. 10 minutes of cardio with a 20 minute jog, instead of a 30 minute cardio and a 20 minute jog. Eating out 3 to 4 days this week instead of maybe once. Eating a few more carbs during the week instead of waiting for the weekend. 2 to maybe 3 Coca Cola glasses of water, instead of 4 to 6. Chocolate! I've got to step it up! I really need a haircut and I want another pedicure, but I can get to those things until I reach the 10 pound mark. I need to find something to motivate me to lose some more weight, then I'll get excited again and want to work harder to lose more. What to do? What to do? Any suggestions?

Starting Over

I'm done having my little tantrum. Sorry about that. I must have still been a little sick and it was making me emotional. I'm better now and am ready just to start over. So I put in a new weight in my weigh-in section and I'm seeing this as a chance to start over. I've already had my first Coca-Cola glass of water. Byron is trying something new, waking up at 4 AM to go to the gym (YAWN!) and I am waking up with him to get an extra hour of things done, including my own exercise! (We'll see how long that goes!) But, the bottom line is, I'm trying again. As of today, I've lost 6 pounds. 4 more and I get my next set of rewards, another pedicure and a new hairstyle. My next question is, how do I lose those 4 pounds, when I've got this plate of cookies sitting on my counter?